I'm so sick of the same old shit always happening regarding certain things. This will be vague just because I have a horrible record of doing so but for fucks sake, it's really funny how people have the hardest time changing. I mean, obviously, it's easy to slack and turn into someone who just does what comes easy. We all do it. Case in point, I am out of shape. Well, I am in shape (sort of) now but 6 months ago, I was a fat fuck. I was out of shape, I was unhealthy and I was on a road that if continued, would take me to a place I may have not had the ability to come out of.

Kate moving in with me pretty much saved my life. I say that with the most dramatic of intentions both because it's fun to be a queen as well as the fact that it's the gods honest truth. Anyhoo, back on topic. Kate got me to quit smoking, to quit drinking, she got me to start working out etc. Now I'm somewhat happy with myself physically but I know I have a lot of work to do until I can actually look myself in the mirror and not get depressed.

I made an appointment to see a shrink today. It's for next Wednesday at 2 and I'm fairly looking forward to it. It will be nice to finally talk to someone, possibly get on some sort of medication which will prevent me from pondering what would happen if I really did climb out on the balcony and see if I had the ability to fly. Morbid like whoa. Sorry.

What I'm trying to get at is that if you aren't careful with yourself, you will end up being someone you never knew existed in a bad way. I got into a really bad pattern of just being "ok" with being depressed. Coming home, drinking myself drunk, taking in horrible things and going to bed all to repeat over and over again until I didn't recognize what was looking back at me in the mirror.

I'm at a good place now I think. I absolutely love my job, I'm scared shitless about getting married in a good way, I am finally not stressing about my obsession with cars on a nightly basis and feel that my relationship with my stepdad is possibly on the up and up (random I know). Kate and I are strangely fun lately even though we are both sick as balls now. I am having fun with her again and for the first time in our relationship, she is making me laugh more than I am making her which is nice.

It's weird how I started this entry off extremely mad and angry about certain things but now that I'm tired of writing, I'm really not anymore. It's strange how, over time, you give up on people and learn to forget them. Poisonous people who are bad for you don't deserve your time and I think it's ok to give up on those kinds of folks sometimes. I'm not 100% but I now know what to do to at least go towards being happier with myself I guess.

www.frogview.com/show2.php?file=415

In a zoo in California , a mother tiger gave birth to a rare set of triplet tiger cubs. Unfortunately, due to complications in the pregnancy, the cubs were born prematurely and due to their tiny size, they died shortly after birth.

The mother tiger after recovering from the delivery, suddenly started to decline in health, although physically she was fine. The veterinarians felt that the loss of her litter had caused the tigress to fall into a depression. The doctors decided that if the tigress could surrogate another mother's cubs, perhaps she would improve.

After checking with many other zoos across the country, the depressing news was that there were no tiger cubs of the right age to introduce to the mourning mother. The veter inarians decided to try something that had never been tried in a zoo environment. Sometimes a mother of one species will take on the care of a different species. The only orphans" that could be found quickly, were a litter of weaner pigs. The zoo keepers and vets wrapped the piglets in tiger skin and placed the babies around the mother tiger.

I TOLD YOU KATE!

28

Stupid Artsy Movies with Made Up Film Award Logos on Their Posters

I remember when artsy movies were shown at Cannes and Cannes only. MAYBE Sundance but those festivals were it. If you had a movie shown there or were part of the "official selection" your movie was guaranteed some sort of Oscar at the end of the year because of it no matter if it was the shittiest 120 minutes ever created in the history of all mankind. Loads of celebrities would flock to some ritzy french town to see YOUR sassy movie about a girl who forgot how to love until a german soldier who was against the war initially but was required to fight because his fathers last dying wish was for him to avenge his grandmothers death finally told her that she had something to love again.

Once you won your award from Cannes, you were then given the right to re-release your movie to general audiences across america with new posters with a stupid little 2" logo of some ivy branch surrounding some gold copy saying "OFFICIAL CANNES SELECTION". That little logo was all that was needed to let Joe Schmoe know that his wife/girlfriend/lover was going to drag his sorry ass to the movies to see it very soon. People at glamorous dinner parties would later talk about it at neauseum which would spread through social circles like a bad case of herpes until the average mom and pop saw it and finally seal it's fate as the GREATEST MOVIE OF ALL TIME. The director would soon grace the stage at the Oscars and thank 59 unknown people who were now very rich because of that tiny little logo.



People in New York City didn't want to miss out on the fun so The Tribeca Film Festival made up their own party and it just went downhill from there. Soon every little town in the country started having film festivals and being how the little ivy branch wasn't a copywritten icon, everyone started using it too.
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Look at all of those awards! Awesome! Se Magnifique!

None of them are from "festivals" outside of Australia. None of them. It could be the shittiest movie of all time but now that it has those lil bullshit fake logos on it, people are going to flock to it.

Now take the movie Postal. It really is going to be the worst movie of all time. Seriously. I shit you not, it will make people stupider for even watching it. Muslim extremists are going to hate America as a whole that much more for even producing such a film. But with the right photoshop trickery, it can instantly be made into a glorious achievement of the human spirit.
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So I say to you, American public, please, for the love of all things holy, please stop encouraging these things. Stop going to the Pennsylvania Film Festival of Greater Scranton. It's only watering down better movies that I so desperately try to avoid like the plague.

So there is this thing called anonymous. They belong to a site called 4chan. 4chan hacked my stupid cat site last year and brought it to it's knees in 5 minutes. I was mad but I learned that one should not fuck with one of the largest internet groups in the world.

If I had to explain the site, it's pretty much how the west was back in the late 1800's. There are no rules or laws or punishment for their crimes (well, if posting pics of anime getting sexually accosted by octopi wearing bear costumes is a crime I guess). It's just pure outright craziness all under the vile of anonymity.

Anyhoo, you may have heard that the group as a whole decided to pick a fight with the church of scientology a few weeks back. I laughed a little as this required the group of 15 year old virgins to actually leave their houses and do something in the outside world so I didn't really hold too much hope.

Until they actually did something about it. Color me impressed. Anyways, here are some pictures of one of their marches outside a scientology building in London that some of my friends went to:













And the best one hahaha


It's only going to get better I hope =)

And who knows how long this thread is going to stay up but here ya go:

http://forums.vwvortex.com/zerothread?id=3674850

Essentially, I want to paint a mural on roxy... so I made an ad.

http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/nva/crg/567403295.html

Kate obviously wants to crush my dreams but I'm pressing on as she just needs time to see my vision.

I'll keep you all updated.