These past few weeks have been stressful as hell. I can't really pinpoint a specific reason why I am stressed but I'm just going to attribute it to the wedding and to cars. That way, with a blanket statement, it covers all of the bases easily.

You know when you hear married couples complain about their wedding being "CRAZY!" and "STRESSFUL!" blah blah blah. Yeah, kate and I were completely laid back a month ago. Pretty much everything was taken care of. But then you start thinking about the little things that you forgot about a month prior to that. THEN, the family bullshit rears it's ugly head and the drama starts, and then you get people asking why they weren't invited, and start to think about the people you did invite but now really want to uninvite those people. Now kate and I are that couple we laughed at.

It sucks. I just want to be married and be done with it. Who knew that a simple day could be so stressful to plan? Right.

And then there's my car. One car is almost done so I'm happy about that but the other car has been nothing but crap for me ever since I bought it. I can't remember one single day when I actually enjoyed it and I've had it for more than a year now.

I just found out it was going to cost me another thousand just to fix what should have been fixed the last thousands I spent on it last month. When do you cut the line and just give up? When does a passion turn into a downfall? I am so persistent to actually see this project to the very end vision I have but it has taught me every bad lesson in the book so far. For some reason I think this is some fucked up lesson I need to learn but I think I already know what it is, I'm just too thick headed to throw in the towel.

Although, I am thankful that it has taught me just about every single skill one needs to have to build a car. I now know how to:
- strip a car
- prep and paint
- pull, swap and rebuild an engine
- reupholster and recover an entire interior
- fabricate damn near anything
- troubleshoot damn near anything
- how and what a turbo does and how to install it and how to diagnose when it doesn't work
- set up a time table and stick to it
- how to handle being let down
- how a budget really works and to pretty much double your first number to actually finish the car.
- don't cheap out no matter how much of a deal you think you can get. Pay what it takes to get it done right. That way, if it doesn't, you demand that it gets fixed and feel that you are justified in doing so.
- never get a "hook up" from a friend. Ever.

I have no idea if this will ever lead to anything in my life that is more substantial than just a hobby but I really really feel that deep down in me, this is going to get bigger. In the period of less than two years I have learned more about cars than I knew from my teens and twenties combined. I am starting to learn about the business as well and it hasn't put that much of a sour taste in my mouth so who knows.

Man, sorry. This turned out to be more for my car blog material. Here's to finishing and actually start enjoying; wedding as well as stupid cars.