Being mature is a crock of shit. The problem with growing up is that it's entirely no fun at all.
When I was in my teen and low-20 years.. Ok, all of my 20's, I was good at flirting and being a smart ass. That's about it. That may not be something to be proud of but at least I did it well.
Now that I'm 31 (*ugh*), I'm engaged to be married so the flirting thing is useless to me now, (unless I flirt with the lil' lady which is perfectly fine by me mind you.) But the being a smart ass thing just isn't working in my favor at all anymore. If you're a smart ass when you're 20, people laugh at your jokes and you're known as the "funny guy" in social circles. Being that guy at 30 now makes you the "annoying guy" and that's really fucking bad for me.
And then there is the whole friends thing. I don't have many "real" friends that I can rely on and I can probably count my medium to close friends on one hand. Within that group, 80% are 1-5 years younger than I and 20% are 5+ years younger. This was all well and good a few years back because we were still in our 20's. This poses a general problem which I'll illustrate in a nice bulleted list:
Issues in your 20's that interest you:
• girls
• alcohol
• hooking up
• working out
• cars
• school debt
• getting a job that allows you to pay the rent
Issues in your 30's that interest you:
• marriage
• losing your hair
• your gut that keeps getting bigger
• catching enough sleep
• picking the right piece of furniture
• mortgages
• getting a job that allows you to pay for your children
Do you see the differences there? In your 20's you don't have to worry about shit. All you have to do is get through the week at your bullshit job so you can spend the weekend getting fucked up, catching the latest shows and paying your bills. In your 30's, you have to worry about your body giving out on you because of all the shit you did in your 20's, losing your job which will, in turn, lose your house which will, in turn, lose your family.
And have you ever looked at 30 year olds lately? They are entirely no fun whatsoever. When you were 20, did the thought of having a "dinner party" excite you in the least? Fuck no. Did you ever go to bed on Friday night thinking how awesome it was going to be to go shop for new paint colors at Depot? No. Did the thought of getting prostate cancer, losing your hair, not being able to make that jump shot anymore or even the chance of getting a heart attack ever cross your mind? Fuuuck no.
I remember when I was in my 20's and I would hear about some of my parent's friends getting cancer or having heart attacks and thought, "Dude, you're 20. No one gets that shit when they're 20. Yer fine." Yeah, well, now I'm 30 and shit like that actually happens nowadays. Every guy I knew when I was 20 feared the lubed finger of the prostate exam but we all knew that you don't get one of those until you're in your 30's. Well guess what, that finger is getting closer and closer to the cavity of my asshole as each day draws on and it fucking sucks.
I don't want to be old. Being old sucks cock. Things that I thought I did that were once "cute" and "silly" are now "weird" and "creepy". I go to bed at 10 now BY CHOICE. I can't play a video game if you paid me not because I don't want to but because I have no idea WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. When I played video games, we had a big ass + and two buttons. Now controllers look like fucking helicopter joysticks and you need three pairs of hands to play them. Fuck that.
I remember when I was 20 and I wanted to own the most bad assed car in my car club. Now I have enough money to make such a car and realize that I still just have the most bad assed car a 20 year old would ever wish to own. It's so ironic it hurts.
And the sad thing about being old is that it doesn't happen overnight. Slowly over time you get invited to less parties and music starts to get a little too loud for you and the people on TV start getting younger and younger as you keep getting older and older. Movies that you LOVED back in the day are horrible now that you watch them and they all stay the same age but you keep getting older.
Maybe one day there will be a dividing line I'll cross that officially makes me "older" and I'll give up the things of my "younger" ways. Maybe I'll realize that it's actually fun to shop for an ottoman or save up to go on a boat trip or get really excited for a wine and cheese party. Maybe that day will happen but for right now I'm stuck in this fucked up cross roads where I'm more used to going to keggers than going to bed. I've had more experience making out at parties than living with my fiancé.
I'm having a hard time with this but I guess it will get better. Maybe I'll make friends with some older people who feel the same way about their 40's as I do about my 30's but for right now it sucks. Hard.
Fuck getting old. That's my view and I'm sticking to it.
When I was in my teen and low-20 years.. Ok, all of my 20's, I was good at flirting and being a smart ass. That's about it. That may not be something to be proud of but at least I did it well.
Now that I'm 31 (*ugh*), I'm engaged to be married so the flirting thing is useless to me now, (unless I flirt with the lil' lady which is perfectly fine by me mind you.) But the being a smart ass thing just isn't working in my favor at all anymore. If you're a smart ass when you're 20, people laugh at your jokes and you're known as the "funny guy" in social circles. Being that guy at 30 now makes you the "annoying guy" and that's really fucking bad for me.
And then there is the whole friends thing. I don't have many "real" friends that I can rely on and I can probably count my medium to close friends on one hand. Within that group, 80% are 1-5 years younger than I and 20% are 5+ years younger. This was all well and good a few years back because we were still in our 20's. This poses a general problem which I'll illustrate in a nice bulleted list:
Issues in your 20's that interest you:
• girls
• alcohol
• hooking up
• working out
• cars
• school debt
• getting a job that allows you to pay the rent
Issues in your 30's that interest you:
• marriage
• losing your hair
• your gut that keeps getting bigger
• catching enough sleep
• picking the right piece of furniture
• mortgages
• getting a job that allows you to pay for your children
Do you see the differences there? In your 20's you don't have to worry about shit. All you have to do is get through the week at your bullshit job so you can spend the weekend getting fucked up, catching the latest shows and paying your bills. In your 30's, you have to worry about your body giving out on you because of all the shit you did in your 20's, losing your job which will, in turn, lose your house which will, in turn, lose your family.
And have you ever looked at 30 year olds lately? They are entirely no fun whatsoever. When you were 20, did the thought of having a "dinner party" excite you in the least? Fuck no. Did you ever go to bed on Friday night thinking how awesome it was going to be to go shop for new paint colors at Depot? No. Did the thought of getting prostate cancer, losing your hair, not being able to make that jump shot anymore or even the chance of getting a heart attack ever cross your mind? Fuuuck no.
I remember when I was in my 20's and I would hear about some of my parent's friends getting cancer or having heart attacks and thought, "Dude, you're 20. No one gets that shit when they're 20. Yer fine." Yeah, well, now I'm 30 and shit like that actually happens nowadays. Every guy I knew when I was 20 feared the lubed finger of the prostate exam but we all knew that you don't get one of those until you're in your 30's. Well guess what, that finger is getting closer and closer to the cavity of my asshole as each day draws on and it fucking sucks.
I don't want to be old. Being old sucks cock. Things that I thought I did that were once "cute" and "silly" are now "weird" and "creepy". I go to bed at 10 now BY CHOICE. I can't play a video game if you paid me not because I don't want to but because I have no idea WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. When I played video games, we had a big ass + and two buttons. Now controllers look like fucking helicopter joysticks and you need three pairs of hands to play them. Fuck that.
I remember when I was 20 and I wanted to own the most bad assed car in my car club. Now I have enough money to make such a car and realize that I still just have the most bad assed car a 20 year old would ever wish to own. It's so ironic it hurts.
And the sad thing about being old is that it doesn't happen overnight. Slowly over time you get invited to less parties and music starts to get a little too loud for you and the people on TV start getting younger and younger as you keep getting older and older. Movies that you LOVED back in the day are horrible now that you watch them and they all stay the same age but you keep getting older.
Maybe one day there will be a dividing line I'll cross that officially makes me "older" and I'll give up the things of my "younger" ways. Maybe I'll realize that it's actually fun to shop for an ottoman or save up to go on a boat trip or get really excited for a wine and cheese party. Maybe that day will happen but for right now I'm stuck in this fucked up cross roads where I'm more used to going to keggers than going to bed. I've had more experience making out at parties than living with my fiancé.
I'm having a hard time with this but I guess it will get better. Maybe I'll make friends with some older people who feel the same way about their 40's as I do about my 30's but for right now it sucks. Hard.
Fuck getting old. That's my view and I'm sticking to it.
hahaha sorry for laughing, but my wife and i had a similar conversation a while back. i'm 30, she's 32...and we sat back one night and were like what the hell is wrong with us and some of the people we have been hanging out with. personally i think it's all a state of mind thing. yeah, you're on point with the mortgages, hair falling out, big ole gut, etc...but i found it's easier to turn off the "30 year old" inside than you might think. we used to spend our weekends going to the outlets or home depot or *gasp* bed bath and beyond...but we just stopped..and realized, we were filling our time with what we thought we were supposed to do...decorate the house, have new clothes for work, get matching pillows for a couch, wasting time and money...my point is this, over the last few months we have been having more fun, going out with the friends that actually like to get out of the house and have some drinks and be stupid...and we're booking a lot of trips for the upcoming months...just trying to take advantage of every minute we get together
you're only as old as you let yourself feel.
yeah fuck getting old physically, but as long as you make sure you don't get stuck in any "but this is how i am supposed to act, and these are the things i need to worry about" rut you're golden.
hear you on the most badass car a 20 year old would wish to own too...it's funny that i could totally build my APR stage 3 1.8t silver arrow MkIII jetta right now...but it wouldn't be the same if it was the silver arrow MkIII i had when I was 22...so now i drool over 911s, RS4s and M5s all the while putzing around in my wife's old car b/c i can't make up my mind about what i want to drive next.
maybe when i'm 40 i'll figure it out ;)
lol, you left one thing out of your list - planning for retirement;)
I'd be thrilled to be invited to a dinner party.
we need a dinning room table first. and somewhere to put it. but first we have to deal with that spare room filled with car parts (;
I'll tell what will make all this worth while...your 1st munchkin. You did for me and baby Jaycee or baby katie will 4 U. Promise.
Yea!!! Make babies! Can I be Uncle Macaroni?
Imagine all the cool mods we can do.
hey Krew, was signed on to the old myspace (which by the way, you should know since you're officially old that facebook is the new myspace LOL)
and noted you weren't there! so popped by to say hi and this post made me laugh cause i totally know what you mean... aside from the whole living with my SO (yet) .. I think i really felt the getting older vibe when invited to 2 parties i chose a more relaxed wine and finger food one as opposed to a kegger. DOH!