Fuck. Already 10pm. How did time escape me like it did? Tonight of all nights. I hear through the walls; the laughter, the screaming, the tussle and bustle of strewn beer caps against the hardwood floors. I look up to see the powerlight on my turntable casting the red glow across the platter markers. No problem, the record is only halfway through. God bless dub plates. I crawl across the floor to rotate the volume knob clockwise. The bass notes now drown out the festivities happening only 12 feet away through cinderblock and wooden walls.
My back is to her when she enters the room. I hear the creak of the door and the "thunk" of the top right corner finally letting go to the door frame because it has been painted far too many times. But I keep my back turned. I can feel the think carpet give way to her 100 pound frame slowly trying to creep. She presses the cold sweaty beer bottle against the back of my neck. I flinch but then press against the glass to cool myself off. I turn around still on my knees and take the bottle with a smile, down a sip and place it on top of the table behind me. I then lunge forward, grab her by the waist and pull her toward me. She falls onto me pushing me back on the ground. As she puts out her arms to support herself, her hair falls over her face onto mine. I don't think I will ever forget how she smelled when she would do this to me. Thick black hair that smelled of jasmine and ocean air. It was always cold to the touch for some reason. Each strand falling over my closed eyes as I would bring in large sighs of air through my nose taking in the scent with a soft smile.
"Are you ready? You have a lot of catching up to do" she said with a laugh.
"Yeah, two more boxes and I will be done." I replied.
"Okay, do you mind if I just curl up and take a quick nap?"
"Sure. Just sleep. When I'm done, I will hop in the shower and get ready", I finished.
She leaned towards me and kissed my lower lip with closed eyes and hoped up with a smile. She walked over to the bed, sunk under the down comforter and closed her eyes as I lay there with a smile looking at the ceiling. I finished finding a place for my belongings in their respective boxes and grabbed the last few items of clothing I had placed out earlier.
Turning the faucet lever for one of the last times, I waited for warmth and then stepped into the marble tub. Arching my back and tipping my head towards the ceiling, I thought of how I would miss this place. The friends, the ocean, the air and the calm whisper of the ocean waves crashing to the shores only minutes away from my bedroom window at night. She would be gone tomorrow. They would be left behind tomorrow. And so would my past. It would be left here with part of my life that just wasn't needed but surely wanted. A time that I knew would pull me to places I didn't want to go to anymore. Behind me was happiness and in front of me was the unknown. A new city, a new job, new triumphs and even newer fears. But for the first time in my life, I was ready to step into the darkness to greet things I had never met before.
Dressed, warm and happy. I walked into the room to see nothing but moonlight grace her skin. the windows were wide and open. The cotton drapes were now flowing and pushed apart by the breeze. The waves were louder now because of the full moon. Car noises were competing with the waves and losing. I walked over to her to bend over and greet her forehead with my lips. Skin against skin for a brief second as her eyes opened to meet mine. A smile crept up on her face as she took in a deep breath and kissed me again.
"Good sleep?" I said.
She sighed, "Yeah. You smell like soap. Smells good."
"Ready?"
"Sure."
My back is to her when she enters the room. I hear the creak of the door and the "thunk" of the top right corner finally letting go to the door frame because it has been painted far too many times. But I keep my back turned. I can feel the think carpet give way to her 100 pound frame slowly trying to creep. She presses the cold sweaty beer bottle against the back of my neck. I flinch but then press against the glass to cool myself off. I turn around still on my knees and take the bottle with a smile, down a sip and place it on top of the table behind me. I then lunge forward, grab her by the waist and pull her toward me. She falls onto me pushing me back on the ground. As she puts out her arms to support herself, her hair falls over her face onto mine. I don't think I will ever forget how she smelled when she would do this to me. Thick black hair that smelled of jasmine and ocean air. It was always cold to the touch for some reason. Each strand falling over my closed eyes as I would bring in large sighs of air through my nose taking in the scent with a soft smile.
"Are you ready? You have a lot of catching up to do" she said with a laugh.
"Yeah, two more boxes and I will be done." I replied.
"Okay, do you mind if I just curl up and take a quick nap?"
"Sure. Just sleep. When I'm done, I will hop in the shower and get ready", I finished.
She leaned towards me and kissed my lower lip with closed eyes and hoped up with a smile. She walked over to the bed, sunk under the down comforter and closed her eyes as I lay there with a smile looking at the ceiling. I finished finding a place for my belongings in their respective boxes and grabbed the last few items of clothing I had placed out earlier.
Turning the faucet lever for one of the last times, I waited for warmth and then stepped into the marble tub. Arching my back and tipping my head towards the ceiling, I thought of how I would miss this place. The friends, the ocean, the air and the calm whisper of the ocean waves crashing to the shores only minutes away from my bedroom window at night. She would be gone tomorrow. They would be left behind tomorrow. And so would my past. It would be left here with part of my life that just wasn't needed but surely wanted. A time that I knew would pull me to places I didn't want to go to anymore. Behind me was happiness and in front of me was the unknown. A new city, a new job, new triumphs and even newer fears. But for the first time in my life, I was ready to step into the darkness to greet things I had never met before.
Dressed, warm and happy. I walked into the room to see nothing but moonlight grace her skin. the windows were wide and open. The cotton drapes were now flowing and pushed apart by the breeze. The waves were louder now because of the full moon. Car noises were competing with the waves and losing. I walked over to her to bend over and greet her forehead with my lips. Skin against skin for a brief second as her eyes opened to meet mine. A smile crept up on her face as she took in a deep breath and kissed me again.
"Good sleep?" I said.
She sighed, "Yeah. You smell like soap. Smells good."
"Ready?"
"Sure."
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