I am so fucking sick of being let down.

I am so fucking sick of having to rely on people.

I am so fucking sick of being let down by people who I rely on.


If I could have it my way, I would be able to do everything I needed to do by myself. Case in point, I need an axle for my car but I can't just go to the dealer because I am broke so I have to get it from a parts guy but can't get it from a parts guy because I need to have an account so a friend I know has an account but now they are sold out and even if I got one, I have to have another friend help me because I don't know how to change an axle yet and then I have to rely on ANOTHER friend to help as well because he has the right tools.

Oh and I need to get all of this together today so I can do it this weekend because I am gone next weekend but will probably not be gone because I just don't fucking care anymore and will probably just stay at home for my week long vacation and just do nothing.

Ugh, fuck I hate sounding like a whiny emo asshole. God damnit I am in a bad mood today.