Well, yeah. Feeling kinda low. I knew it was coming which is fine but it always stings more and more each time. I don't think I have ever lead a steady way of life. It's always super highs and then super lows. No middle ground. I guess I like it that way because normal just bores me. Is that ok though? This summer was just moment upon moment of highs after a really bad low during the spring and now with the turn of the weather, it seems to bring in the lows.

I hate the cold. I hate having to put on layers when I wake up. I hate jackets. It's just not comfortable.

And with Jess hating me, molly being a flake, leah being bipolar and my pops being a complete fuck to me, it all comes crashing down once more. And sure, I'm being dramatic but it still hurts.

I am finally remembering how nice boring used to be and I took it for granted. Sure it's boring but you know what to expect. I wasn't expecting this week at all.

*sigh

All there is to do is move forward as much as possible and get through the low part. That crazy high has to be around here somewhere.